Time

Live in the moment, because moments can only be lived once and once through.

Walk along the street lamps at the middle of the night, enjoy the silence, enjoy the feeling that the usually-crowded pathway is yours only for the night. Count the number of steps you take like you have all the time in the world.

Cross the empty road that's plagued by heavy traffic in the daytime. Only one car zooms past you. That feeling is fantastic.

Take the public bus and relish the satisfaction you get from being the only passenger on board. Bid the driver, who's usually grouchy during peak hours, goodnight and see how he's actually one friendly soul as he smiles brightly back at you.

Cuddle in bed and watch your favourite movies, one after the other, until daybreak comes and you fall asleep with the computer still on. How many times do we get to sleep when the sun rises? When we were teenagers, it happened to be a nightly affair. As we grow older, we feel tired, we feel the ache in our bones and the pounding in our heads when we try to keep awake for long hours at a stretch. Treasure the time now.

Honestly, how much of this will I miss?

A lot, definitely.

It's difficult to live in the moment, but let's try.

Goodnight guys, just feeling really accomplished tonight after 12 straight hours in school today.
<3 you all

Thoughts from a sleepless night.

Sometimes, I don’t dare to write/type down exactly what’s been on my heart for so long. It feels like once those words are etched out on somewhere concrete, they just materialize and what was once previously ‘nothing’ suddenly transforms into a ‘something’. 

Like when a person drops all her books on the floor in front of us, and just because we see what happens, we have an obligation to help her pick up all her stuff. When people say something is ‘out of sight, out of mind’, do they really mean it? 

So many things I want to say, but I don’t know where to start. Or maybe, just some part deep within me is just wishing the words in the mind will magically disappear forever, then everything can seem normal and fine. Does it work that way?

So scared of what's to come, this time ten times stronger because everything feels too good to be true and so uncertain right now. Let's just wait and see what happens. Stop screwing things up self, please.