On nights like these when the moon is bright, the mind cant help but think just a tad bit more. I took a nap, I woke up, it was 11pm. Thoughts travel back to when I was in school. How things have changed. When I fall asleep early now, I remember how when I was still in school, at this timing I would not even be home. Still travelling on the highway, tired but content with life and just being able to find a seat on the bus lugging my heavy laptop and files of notes would make me more than happy. Yes I had little rest, but I was okay with that. Fast forward to now, sleeping times have increased because even though I do not have a content heavy workload like I did in school, I feel tired all the time.. sometimes I stop and ask myself, what am I doing all this for? Wheres the meaning? I am so afraid one day I will lose sight of this goal, and I really dont want that to ever happen. Nights like these I just want to be transported back to the past, even if its for awhile. Just to live in the moment and maybe feel what I used to feel again. That I had something to look forward to and live for. Its becoming much harder these few days, honestly. But then the world stops for nobody, and if there is a possibility that I can turn back time, who will be there in the past, waiting to re-live those moments again together with me? Perhaps nobody, because everybody has moved on.
Havent drafted a post like this in a long time. I'll admit, doing this once in a while feels so good, probably I need to return here more often. Goodnight world and goodnight blog for being a constant familiarity, something I really need now.
