NUS has been so good to me. The experiences created in my school can never be recreated, and so for memories' sake, this (long) post is born.
I
could not ask for a better house (S-HOUSE SWEE AH), because although
I was kinda overwhelmed by the amount of enthusiasm and rowdiness
flowing through every single camp, I understand what people mean when
they say a house is more like a home. I'm proud to be from S-House
even though I still may not understand all the hokkien cheers,
because it truly is a large, welcoming family.
Oweek'12
I
could not ask for a better OG (S3 BEST OG!), because it is here I
found precious friends that cheered together, bidded for modules
together, attended lectures together, had OG outings together, spent
several hour-long breaks together talking about ANYTHING and
EVERYTHING under the sun, slept in the library together, studied
furiously during exam period together, and enjoyed each other's
company together.
I could not ask to be more involved in these special aspects of NUS life too! The most memorable event for me was
being a part of Orientation Week 2012 Committee. Lots of time was
spent before the camp trying to secure sponsorships for the camp, and
through that itself, I think I learnt quite a lot, since marketing
was pretty new to me. Thanks to Yishi for helping me all the time and
tolerating my noob-ness haha. But during the camp itself, I saw a
large-scale project and lots of planning and effort unfold into
something tangible, and when I observed people actually enjoying our
camp, it was so, so satisfying. OWeek'12 committee was awesome in
itself as well, because everybody was so friendly, fun-loving and I'm
glad to have got a chance to know all of you <3
I
wasn't very active in NUS Campus Crusade, but I'm still thankful to
my DG for being so welcoming to me everytime I came for DG. I
appreciate you girls for being so open during sharing and creating
such a fun and comfortable environment for me to share as well. I
remember all the games we play, movies we watch, funny photos we take
with Photobooth and the times we digress until DG extends late into
the night. Being with you girls inspire me to seek God more because I
see how He has worked in all of your lives.
And
my crusade siblings! Even though I couldn't attend all the worship
sessions, I am thankful for them because it is awesome to start the
semester and end it with God in mind. Thank you to all of you
brothers and sisters in Christ for friendly fellowship gatherings,
for responding to my prayer requests, for being a steadfast source of
blessing and reminding me time and again that God is faithful and He
will never fail us. And I will always remember how Don Moen graces
our worship sessions almost every time HAHA.
Before I
started university, I found it hard to believe when people would tell
me the couple of years ahead would be the best times of being
youthful. There I was, facing a massive cloud of uncertainty,
blocking the way to my then-ambitions. Looking back now, I see that
contrastingly, these 3 short but meaningful years actually paved the
way for me to advance further in life. That being
said, lifetime experiences always come with a price, and not every
single moment of my journey was smooth-sailing. Actually, I think it
was all the obstacles that made me more resilient and unafraid of
whatever was to come. I had my fair share of difficult times as
well, lots of them in fact. I remember when I was in my freshman year
and learning how to adapt to the academic system in NUS.
My first set of exam results was seriously a punch in the gut for me
because never in my life did I expect myself to do so badly. It kinda
affected me for a long time, because what little morale I had inside
of me just vanished into thin air. I was discouraged and there was a
period of time I just didn't care about studying anymore, and even
tried my hand at working while studying just to get away from the
stress I felt every time I stepped into school. After more discouragement and getting slightly better but still mediocre results
on my assignments, I decided I had to buck up if not remain stagnant
where I was. It wasn't easy either. I remember so many nights when I
forced my eyes to remain open, coaxing myself to digest the mountain
piles of readings in front of me, giving myself ultimatums and no
matter how sleepy I was and how much I wanted to collapse on my bed
and just give up, I just had to keep going on. I thank God that some
fruits did grow on my tree after all, and the joy and pride of seeing
better results spurred me on further. In Year 3, I wanted to give it
my best shot because as much as I was reluctant, it might have been
my last university year and I wanted to go the extra mile for myself
and for God too. I promised myself to work doubly hard. Studying in
the CLB until the library closed almost everyday became a
routine for me, but rather than loathe it, I found myself enjoying it
more and more, because I wasn't alone. Lunch breaks, tea breaks,
dinner breaks and having less traffic on the road and less people on
the buses at 11pm every night all serve as a point of nostalgia for
me now, because I know that I would probably never get the same
experience back again. It was exhausting, yes, but if I had never
tried it, I would never have dreamed of myself being able to push on
so far. For that, I know it was never my own strength, and for that,
I thank God and the wonderful people around me.
The blow
came when I realized I was improving steadily, but this improvement
was still not enough for me to advance to Year 4. Back then it was a
huge disappointment to me, because the thought of graduating alone
scared me so much. I prayed for miracles every single night, I cried
so often and got puffy red eyes multiple times throughout the
semester, I tried studying more and more and more, but in the end, I
still found myself registering for Commencement 2014. Looking back, I
wouldn't say that my efforts and prayers went to waste, because this
made me treasure my every minute spent in school and pushed me to go
the extra mile to maintain contact with more friends. I feel so silly
now for being worried that I had nobody to graduate with, because so
many lovely people came to attend my commencement even though it was
so late at night, my parents were there for me, I knew so many
familiar faces in the auditorium, and most importantly, God was
beside me throughout, holding my hand tightly. And I knew that I was
never once alone.
There are so many people I wish to thank individually, but then this post would probably be about 20 pages long.. But there are still significant people to thank and I will try to do a good job of it anyway =P
Firstly, I want to thank my heavenly Daddy for making ALL of this possible. I cannot stress this enough, but without Your love and grace to support me, carry me, and lead me to make better decisions, I would probably still be that muddle-headed, lost and blur girl I used to be prior to entering NUS. I would like to believe that I have gotten abit more level-headed and appreciative of what I have. Clinging to the promises You have set out for my life was pretty difficult, especially when I couldn't see any concrete plans forming in my life. I constantly questioned, and I was impatient, and I am sorry for not having more faith in You. You have proved to me that You are graceful, faithful and more than I can ever ask for. To see where I was 3 years ago, and where I am now always leaves me in awe, because I know I could not have done it by myself.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Jeremiah 29:11
Thank You for sending this verse to me everytime I was down and wanted to give up, for it gave me the strength to continue on.
Secondly, thank you to the people related to me by blood: My family.
Mama, you are the person I love the MOST in this earthly world, and the most important person in my life. These 3 years, and in all 22 years of my existence, you have been a foundation that anchors my life and brings me back on the path of what is right. I admire you for being a super strong woman, both physically and emotionally, and for loving all your grandchildren unconditionally. You have provided for me ALL the time, even when I refused your money or lunch and dinner treats. The most enjoyable times I have are without a doubt with you, because even though we do the simplest things like cook meals together, watch Pokemon together, or even just lie on the sofa together talking about random stuff, I feel just right at home because your presence comforts me. I don't say this enough, but I love you with all of my heart. Without you, I would not be the person I am today. A million thank yous would not be enough to express my gratitude towards you, and all I can do is to pay it forward, for that is the most important lesson you have taught me. Wishing you health and blessings, all the days of your life. <3
Daddy and Mummy, I know that there are times when I find it difficult to get along with the both of you, and we all have our grumpy days. Nevertheless, the two of you have been a constant source of provision and support to me in your own unique ways as well, and for that I am thankful. Daddy, you always remind us to be responsible for our actions and to be meticulous in all we do, and I think that is a valuable lesson that I would definitely pass down to my children in the future. I am glad we have become closer in the recent years, thank you for accommodating my sometimes unreasonable demands, but never refusing by harsh words. Instead, you help me to see from a bigger perspective, and for all the potentially dangerous doors that you have closed, I may not have agreed with you in the past, but now that I am older, I see where you were coming from and I am grateful that you were strict when it regarded my upbringing. Everytime you say you are proud of me for who I am, my heart swells to know that I have a father who loves me. Mummy, we may not always see eye to eye on issues, and there were many times I threw bitch fits and got angry with you. I am sorry from the bottom of my heart, and I acknowledge the times when you put in extra effort to greet us warmly after long hours at work. Whatever we wanted since young, like gameboys and cameras and toys, you would end up getting them for us, thank you for showering us with love. You may be quite naggy, but I know that it is because you are worried for us, and for that, I am thankful too. I hope that our relationship will only grow closer in the upcoming years, may we continue to do lots of fun things together. <3
My brothers, Darius and Darren. Darius, you are the BEST brother and companion in this lifetime that I can ever ask for. Even though you are a constant source of annoyance with your irritating remarks on how I am fat, I know that deep down you don't really think that way HAHA. I have had the honor to see you grow up from a little toddler to the handsome young man you are now, and I am proud of the way you have turned out. Your dedication to the service of God and your sense of loyalty and righteousness, I see it all and I am glad that you have these qualities in you. Thank you for the HTHTs, being my personal trainer and encourager when we go on jogs around the reservoir, posting the same pictures on instagram and competing who has more likes (YOU always win btw), for all the breakfasts and suppers you have cooked for me without complaining, letting me kope your potato chips, and playing lame games like Maple story with me, letting me choose clothes for you and confirming that I have good taste, I remember all these and I am glad that we can do all these things together as siblings. Everytime you play songs on the guitar, I feel like singing along because the sound is just so melodious. You have no idea how much I brag about you to my friends, all because I am proud I have such an awesome brother like you. Be touched pls <3 Darren, our age gap is 11 years old, and I have not spent much time with you because most of the time, you are already in bed when I reach home. I like to bully you and tease you, but you know that deep down your sister loves you. I am sorry for the times I have been harsh with you and scold you constantly. It is only because I DO want the best for you, and I want you to grow up a healthy happy human being. That being said, you bring joy to my life too, because you can be the funniest joker when you want to be, you are an amazing lyricist and singer, and you are willing to take crazy selfies with me. <3
Aunty Nelly, you have been working in Singapore in our house for a decade (WOW) and I am impressed that you are so committed to taking care of us. I really enjoy the times when I share my daily happenings with you, and you tell me hilarious stories of our neighbors as well. You are one of the few people who I know will never judge me, is selfless, and no matter how tired you are, you are one of the most cheerful people that I know. I admire your strength when you open canned food for me, you are my source of inspiration when it comes to cooking, and you make me want to be useful and do more housework. I know that you have had your fair share of difficulties and tragedies, but never once did you let yourself be overcome by grief, instead you choose to trust in God and remain optimistic about life. Without you, I really don't know how this house can function properly, you have left an imprint on all of our hearts, and to me, you are truly part of this family. I love you, thank you for being the best roommate in the world, I would never want another <3
To my VCD2 (Vanessa, Constance, Dewaine),
I love how we still keep in contact even after secondary school! You girls are the most dynamic bunch of gorgeous girls I have met, and I am so fortunate to have known you in SAC. Even though we may not be in the same schools or pursuing the same life goals anymore, I know that you three will be my bestest girl friends until the day I die. Vanessa (I just copy from the Instagram post I dedicated to you hor), Special post dedicated to my bestest best friend, Vanessa Marie Lee. Thank you for the cute bear and card, for driving all the way down to my place to pass them to me. More than that, thank you for standing by me for 11 years. You have been with me (physically and mentally and emotionally) for every single day of my university life, and even though we are in different schools, I always feel you are just right next to me. It is a wonder how we manage to keep in contact everyday even if we are at opposite ends of the island, or even when we are literally in different parts of the world. Thank you for listening to my every (boring) story, tolerating my bitchy moments, giving me the best advice, celebrating with me, not judging me, and being a pillar of support and collector of my tears all these years. There is nothing I can ever hide from you, and I am so, so proud and eternally grateful that I can call you my best friend. You better continue to stay in my life for many more decades hor! Without you I really couldn't have gotten through everything. Thank you for being the amazing person you are. ♥ Love you x919283736292020202 Dewaine, my cute yet most garang friend, I still remember the first time I saw you I thought you were very fierce HAHA. But going through more than half a decade of life with you has led me to love you and appreciate you as my dearest friend, because you are an absolute joy to be around. I remember town being our frequent hangout when we were younger, and even though we may not be as carefree as last time, please continue to ask me out okay! (I am free until September hehe) Thank you for entertaining us all with your endless stories and randomest comments, for opening your house for us to just chill and have gossip sessions, for sending me home so many times even though my house is super ulu, and for all the hugs and reassurances. Even though my first impression of you was fierce, now I know that you are fiercely loyal to your friends, and I am indeed honoured to be your friend. Thank you for always telling me you will burn down the house of anybody who tries to hurt me, I love you <3 Constance, your paragraph is below =P
To my siblings in Christ and Faithfulnest (Anna, Olivia, Huiting, Eunice, Melissa, Jolene, Shihui, Rubez, Susanna) !
Seeing all of you girls really brighten my weekends! We have gone through so much together since we were 13 years old (omg) and to be where we are now as a cell, I am so glad we have expanded. I feel no reluctance sharing with all of you about what's going on in my (boring) life because I know that good or bad, you all are a source of support and you all do not judge. Thank you for keeping me accountable, and for offering prayers everytime I have requests. I thank God for putting me in such a lovely cell group, because you girls show me what it is like to have Christ in your lives, and to be steadfast and seek God all the time. I remember all the church camps, youth camps, retreats, HTHTs, dinners, picnics and various events that we have all been to together, and I know that Faithfulnest will exist all the way until we are old and wrinkly and are grandmothers. So thankful for a group of sisters in Christ who are willing to listen to all my stories, look out for me and be there for me. <3
To
those wonderful people who went through thick and thin with me on a
daily basis, the deepest of my thanks go to all of you. Honestly, if
I had to face all the obstacles and challenges by myself, I'm pretty
sure I wouldn't have been able to maintain my sanity.
Rebekah,
I think I see you the most these past 3 years! Thank you for taking
almost all my core modules with me. You have really been a blessing
to me, giving me advice when I am in the horrible stages of my life,
quietly being there for me when I throw unreasonable tantrums, and
celebrating with me during the happy and liberating times (ahem, mid
term tests, essays, exams over). Thank you for being the most loyal
shopping buddy, studying buddy, eating buddy,
laughing-at-people-and-profs buddy and HTHT buddy. People always
mistake the both of us for each other probably because we are always
around campus together, but everytime they do, I am secretly happy
HAHA. You have shown me what it is to be a child of God, and I really
admire how you trust in Him even in the darkest times. Don't miss me
too much in the coming year, even though I won't be with you
physically, you can always think of me and I will know it. My time in
NUS wouldn't have been so fulfilling without you experiencing it with
me. Thank you Deary! <3
Constance,
you are probably the second person I see the most around school on a
daily basis. We have come such a long way, and out of the 22 (21 for
you) years of my life, I'm glad that we have walked through 13 years
of it together, and have the whole future to get through together! It
may sound cheesy, but being near you is like having a bright,
unpredictable spark around, you say the most random things ever, but
you never fail to turn my stormiest day into the brightest one. I
like how we can take the silliest, funniest photos, feeling perfectly
natural HAHA. I'm proud of how long a way you have come, from us
being blur slacker freshies in Year 1 to you pursuing your Honors Year. I will have the most difficult time getting used to not seeing
you every alternate day at least, but I'm wishing you the best year
of your life ahead. Please remember to update me on your life
regularly hor! Love you!
My
dearies (Rebekah, ShaoHan, Suven, Rachel, Constance, Isaac), our
KBOX, shopping and dinner sessions all remain vividly in my mind. I
will always be impressed once Rebekah and Shaohan grab the mics @
TeoHeng to sing. Thank you for brightening my each and every school
day even when it was difficult to look forward to. You are a group of
people that I can feel totally comfortable with, thank you all for
being so nice and lovely, always! <3
Our
Mother Knows Best group, I think our Whatsapp group has undergone
multiple crazy renaming ceremonies, but the 3 of you have brought
immense joy to my life. Thank you Mummy Bryan for
always nagging at us and introducing the best food in NUS to us. You
will always be Kim Jong Un in our eyes, but you are also our dearest
mother and we will always listen to you (: My dearest Princess
Rachel, words cannot express how thankful I am that we grew
closer from Year 2 onward. You are my most adorable squeaky friend
and it's amazing how we click with each other so well! I looked
forward greatly to all our HTHT talks and our walks around NUS
together to find Kitty. Social work lessons were a breeze to get by
because you were with me, and I like how we can be each other's
source of support when not so nice things happen. I will never, ever,
ever find a better Masterchef partner, so let's please continue to
watch Ramsay screaming and Joe being mean, together for as long as
the show airs. I love you so much, from the bottom of my heart <3
(I
can't find a picture of all 3 of us with Bryan T_T)
To my
Korean BBQ gang, Yishi and Soh Leng, we don't meet often in school,
but I'm so glad we were in Marketing Committee together because both
of you are two of the sweetest girls I have met in school. To Yi Shi,
thank you for being the greatest HTHT buddy and confidante throughout
these 3 years. Even though our timetables always clash, I'm glad we
are still close! I like how understanding and caring you are to all
of your friends, and everytime I see you on bus 95, I remember how I
always exclaim that it's fate that brought us together. HAHA. You
also say the most bimbo things, but it makes me laugh like no
tomorrow, so I guess it's okay =P Happy graduation to you, my dear!
Soh
Leng, I think that fate has brought us together, because even though
we were both from SRJC, we only got close in NUS. I'm glad we have
the similar chill mindset, for I could never find a better companion
during Oweek'12 and Natural Heritage lectures. You are the best
person to rant to, because not only will you rant with me, but you
are able to distract me from my problems by talking about other
things. You still have one more year in NUS, but can we still have
our cafe dates, cycling dates, KBOX dates, and nature therapy
sessions? I know that in whatever you do, you will be super
successful, so remember to share some of that success with me okay?
You're a friend I treasure very much, and I'm always thankful for the
fact that we manage to still keep in contact once in a while. Thank
you bimbo! =P
To my
best friend Shannon Teo (we do not have a picture together, HOW CAN
THIS BE?!), you entered university two years too late, because I
think if we were to get in at the same time, school would have been
crazier and more memorable. It's amazing how our SRJC friendship
could last until now, and although you are the most irritating and
annoying friend that anyone can have, under all those layers of
asshole-ness, you are really a true friend indeed. Even though our 1
year in school together was really really short, I appreciate that I
got to spend quite some time with you the past year. Philo lectures
with you and your friends were memorable, with you making fun of all
the philosophers (DAMN MEAN), racing each other in Funrun, and
discussing all our disgusting Philo summaries together before
submitting them, I never regretted taking the module with you. And if
one module wasn't enough, you wanted us to take another module
together. That computing module was really crazy and half the time I
didn't know what was going on. Thank you for always offering to show
me your tutorials, and explaining the yucky mathematical stuff to me
until I understand. Filming our 50% project was a pain, but being
your retarded self, you brought me and Rebekah much joy and laughter
hahaha. Thank you for all the dinners in school and out of school,
the study sessions in CLB and UTown, the car rides home (I'm NOT a
car slut), always lending a listening ear and tolerating my endless
bitchy ranting, and making MRT rides home from school seem shorter
than they really are with your nonsense. This friendship is one that
I hope will last really, really long. Although we trade the crudest,
most horrible sounding insults to each other, deep down you know that
you're special because I would, and could never do this and feel no
remorse to anybody other than you. Thank you #bestfriend for
everything.
There are so many people who have come alongside me and made a difference in my life, and all of you know who you are. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for every minute you have spent on me, for loving me for me, and for being patient with me in all circumstances. Words cannot express my feelings, but know that I treasure every single one of you greatly, very greatly. <3
The NUS
Chapter has officially closed, and I am really proud of where I am
standing now. Referring to myself as a graduate still feels a bit
funny, and I guess it will take some time to get used to. I'm
thankful to NUS for the memories, thankful to my family and friends
for being there for me, and thankful to God for making all of these 3
years possible. Without all of You, none of this would have turned
out the way it was, and if I had the chance to do it all over again,
I would willingly do it, probably put more heart and soul into it,
but I would choose all this again, without a doubt.
